Stars Can’t Shine Without Darkness – Third in the series of The Social Isolation Diaries
11th April 2020
Thank you so much to everyone who read my ‘Dark Night of the Soul’ post. I am sitting here writing the next post and my mind was searching for a suitable quote about light and darkness. I remembered that Mr Sexy Pants (MSP) bought me a notepad last year and on the front, there was a quote: “Stars Can’t Shine Without Darkness”. (Isn’t he adorable? He hasn’t got a spiritual bone in his body and yet somehow he chose the most perfect item for me).
My dark night of the soul blog post was originally written to a few friends on Wednesday evening, when I was at a pretty low ebb. Writing my feelings down was so cathartic. It brought me a lot of peace and clarity. I have felt so much better for the last couple of days.
I couldn’t sleep that night and I watched a couple of YouTube videos from Abraham Hicks and an energy update from Lee Harris, which I found really helpful. Lee talked about how crazy the cosmic energy is at the moment and how it’s affecting all of us, no matter how positive our mindset or how spiritually evolved we are.
I’ve also taken my own medicine and allowed myself to feel the pain. I’ve been fully present in the moment and felt the pain in my whole body. I can’t remember the exact quote, but Eckhart Tolle says something about when you’re fully present, you might not be happy, but you will be at peace. That is so true, and that peace is an incredible feeling. In my experience that peace leads into Happiness anyway.
I also need to take my own medicine and give myself a break. It’s okay to have downtime. I will benefit from it. My ideas will be fresh, and I’ll be in a better position to help others. As a dear friend pointed out, the only thing I need to pull the plug on is putting so much pressure on myself.
I sometimes feel that everything has to be done now. Everything is urgent. That is scarcity or poverty consciousness. It comes from a place of feeling that there is not enough time. A couple of weeks ago I realised that I was constantly talking and thinking about how ridiculously busy I am. I was wearing my busyness as a badge of honour, as I once heard someone say. I also noticed how I kept talking about “going insane” and “Thank God Boris says we can still go out and exercise. My daily walks in the park are keeping me sane.” I realised I needed to change my words and my thoughts. I changed my narrative to “I have plenty of time and I manage my time effectively for success and serenity”. Serenity has a much nicer energy than sanity.
Kate Northrup, creator of the Do Less philosophy, says “The more we relax, the more money we make”. Susie Moore said in a recent podcast interview that her key to success is to relax. I love this! Wouldn’t it be great if I could achieve that? I certainly feel more relaxed after my recent experiences and I hope I can maintain that feeling.
I think part of the reason I’ve been feeling guilty is due to being worried that I’m repeating old behaviours of laziness and procrastination. However, I know that’s not the case for the following reasons: 1. Every day I ask my guides and Angels what would you have me do? How would you have me serve etc? Based on the teachings of Marianne Williamson and The A Course in Miracles. As Teal Swan says, “What is the highest and best of use of my time? What would someone who love themselves do?” I believe I’ve been guided to give myself a break. 2. I can tell the difference between procrastination and needing to rest. If I am procrastinating and I push myself, once I’ve started, I get into flow, I enjoy what I’m doing and I’m fine. In fact, I’m flying. Whereas if I need a rest and I push myself, I can’t get into flow and it feels like I’m wading through treacle.
Another thing that I’ve been reminded of is that feeling guilty and feeling that I’m not doing enough or not good enough comes from a place of fear and the ego. Everyday I pray to be in service, invoke my higher self and get fear and ego out of the way.
I am a star and sometimes I need to experience the darkness to shine more brightly.
What about you? Have you experienced a dark night of the soul? How have you overcome it?
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This post was originally published on happiness-club.co.uk.