I want to tell you that it’s okay not to be okay. I’m holding my hands up and confessing that the last few weeks, since my Grandma died, have been tough. I’ve felt low, tired and tearful. I’ve felt like a hypocrite. Continue reading “It’s okay not to be okay”
On Tuesday evening I had the privilege of being interviewed on Radio Suffolk’s Tuesday Night Takeover show about mental health with Jon Wright and Suffolk User Forum. I spoke of how my spiritual and Buddhist practices have helped me to overcome depression. Katie Mottram from Emerging Proud and author of Mend the Gap talked about the link between spirituality and mental health. Listen now. You can hear Katie at about 1 hour and 17 minutes and I’m on after that at about 1 hour and 40 minutes, along with Linda talking about Mindfulness.
Yesterday I left work early as I felt tired and tearful. I went to bed at 9 pm, determined to wake up feeling better and raring to go. Inspired by my ex-flatmate Lottie, I’ve been challenging myself to do Hal Elrod’s Miracle Morning (more about that in a later post) over the last couple of days so I set my alarm for 6.30 am, determined to have a successful day three.
I’m reluctant to call myself a Buddhist, even though I practice Nicherin Buddhism on a daily basis. Having being part of a few different religions and practiced various forms of spirituality, I am reluctant to put a label on it. I have to admit though that out of everything I’ve done, practicing Buddhism with Soka Gakkai International (SGI) has had the most profound effect on my life.
I have found Mindfulness to be a particularly helpful tool to overcome negativity and depression. It’s easy to go down a negative path. When I catch myself doing this there are three things I do to stop myself heading into a harmful spiral of self-destruction.
Morning affirmations are a great way to start your day on a positive note. I sometimes suffer with anxiety when I first wake up and I find affirmations are a great way to combat this. In this post I talk about some of my favourites:
It turns out there is light at the end of the tunnel. For a while there I thought there was no hope. I must admit, since I came off my anti-depressants it has been a struggle and yet from what I read, I’ve had it easy compared to others in the same boat.
It’s been a few weeks since I posted. I’ve had a challenging time. I must admit I’ve been feeling quite low since coming off my anti-depressants. My businesses are not going as well as I would like. My finances are shocking. I’ve had to take a job in a call centre on minimum wage. I have felt like a failure. I have felt as though the hope has run out. As if the light at the end of the tunnel has been extinguished.
I keep catching myself telling this story to myself and others and to a certain extent I know I’m wallowing in self-pity. After one particular evening where I’d been telling my ‘woe is me’ story to anyone who would listen, I realised that I need to change my story or as Abraham Hicks would say ‘Get off the subject’. I wrote about this back in 2013 in my post How to Get What You Want – Change the Subject and five years later in 2018, it seems I am still learning the same lesson.
It’s easy to forget the importance of forgiveness. We forgive others, not to benefit them, but to benefit ourselves. Holding onto anger, bitterness and blame eats away at us and stops us from achieving peace of mind. It can be tricky to forgive, especially when we’ve been deeply hurt.