Super-Duper Courtesy Car and Lucid Dreaming

I’ve got a super duper courtesy Fiesta from Chips Away, Martlesham, while they fix my car. It’s a smooth ride (apart from the brakes, which are really sharp) and it’s got loads of cool gadgets. The dashboard lights up like a space ship. The key has some kind of mechanism that prevents you from driving over 80 mph. I have to admit to having mixed feelings about that one.

As I left the gym in the dark earlier this evening, I chuckled to myself and observed that the lights probably came on automatically and that maybe the car had some kind of special sensor that could tell when it was dark.  Unfortunately, I couldn’t work out how to put the lights on.  I sat in the car trying various things, but none of them worked. In the end, I decided that the car DID have sensors and that the lights must come on automatically. I fiddled around, testing the theory out and decided that the evidence was supportive. However, as I drove home along the A12 I had reason to doubt, as I was repeatedly flashed by other drivers.

I pulled over, put my hazard lights on, turned the engine off and rooted around for the manual.  As I finally managed to find the switch for the lights and turn them on, the car switched itself back on, making me jump slightly. As I continued my drive home, I pondered on the strangeness of this and observed that it was like a dream. “Maybe I was dreaming”, I suddenly thought to myself and laughed out loud. I’ve recently been reading about lucid dreaming and repeating the affirmation, “I will remember to recognize that I’m dreaming.” The idea is that if you recognize  you’re dreaming, you can control the dream and design your own adventure.

I was pretty sure that I wasn’t dreaming but I tried to create my own adventure just in case. I couldn’t decide what I wanted to do. I considered making the car fly, but I decided that would be a bit scary. I found it quite difficult to think of anything I wanted to do, which is odd considering I have lots of lists of intentions and things I’d like to achieve. I thought fleetingly of a bedroom scene, but couldn’t think of anyone I’d like to join me. After trying a couple of things out, nothing happened, so I decided I must be awake after all. I still had a lot of fun, made myself laugh and realised that I am starting to truly love myself. (I love people that can make me laugh).

Before anyone asks, yes, I am sober and no, I haven’t been taking LSD.

How to Get What You Want – 30 day challenge

Last year a friend of mine gave me a recording of Earl Nightingale’s “The Strangest Secret”. I listened to it again this morning and it’s inspired me to take Earl’s 30 day challenge. Maybe you’d like to join me. Start by listening to the recording on YouTube by clicking here. Once you’ve listened to it, follow the steps below to get what you want.

1. Write one goal on a piece of card and look at it throughout the day. On one side write your goal and on the other side write “Ask and it is given, seek and you will find, knock and it shall be opened.”

2. Save 10% of everything you receive.

3. Tithe 10% of everything you receive.

4. Only think positive thoughts. Avoid complaining and putting yourself down.

5. Give whatever you’re doing 100% and more.

6. Give to others. Be of service.

7. If you find yourself in a negative mindset, start the 30 days again.

8. Keep your vibration high by dancing, singing, meditating and doing things you love and make you feel good.

9. Let go of attachment to the outcome. Let go of the need to know how it will happen. Trust in a power greater than yourself.

10. Be grateful for all the wonderful things you already have.

11. Join our Facebook group “How to Get What You Want – 30 day challenge” to share experiences and give and receive support.

The Health Experiment – Part Two

2013 was a tough year for me. I was physically and emotionally exhausted and endured a steep learning curve. In 2014, I have completely turned my life around. I attribute this to the help I have received from my Nicherin Buddism practice, 12 step programmes, TFT with Val Chater, White Light healing from Robina Hearle, life coaching with Katrina Love, business coaching with Suzanne MacDonald Carr, drinking Forever Freedom aloe gel and most importantly, through my own determinations.

After having problems with fatigue since I was a teenager, I was finally able to see a specialist earlier this year, who diagnosed me with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, also known as ME. Ironically, due to all the personal development work and spiritual practices I’d been doing, coupled with healthy eating and exercise, I felt better than I had for a long time. I was convinced I was on the wrong thyroid medication and when I was diagnosed with ME, I was scared the doctors would use the diagnosis to fob me off and I would never get my thyroid sorted out. As it turned out though, this caused the doctors to investigate my thyroid further – I’d been asking them to do this for many years. As a result of these investigations, I was put on T3 as well as T4, which was something else I’d been asking the doctors to do for some time.  The ME doctor later decided I had Chronic Stress Syndrome rather than Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. I had a tendency to get tired due to excessive stress and worry, trauma from an unhappy childhood, and being estranged from my family as an adult.

Although I was beginning to feel a lot better, I was still prone to bouts of fatigue and I knew my eating and exercise habits still left a lot to be desired. I found it difficult to get motivated to eat healthily and exercise and so I used my Nicherin Buddism practice and chanted for inspiration. Within a short space of time, I began life coaching with Katrina Love, who worked with me on improving my self-esteem. She also asked me to complete a food diary. At about this same time, I saw a Facebook advert for complete beginners to train to take part in a charity boxing match, placed by fitness coach and owner of Suffolk Punch Boxing Club, Matt Brennan, whom I’d met previously through my business coach, Suzanne MacDonald Carr.

I have always been against boxing due to my passion for peace and non-violence, but when I saw the ad, excitement stirred inside me. I knew this was something I had to pursue and was the incentive I needed. As I said to Matt, “If I can do it, anyone can do it!”

I had to attend a trial and I half-expected to be unsuccessful due to being overweight and extremely unfit. To my delight, the first exercise we had to do was skipping. I loved skipping as a child and I thought it would be easy. Unfortunately, it wasn’t as easy as I remembered and I couldn’t do it at first, but I was determined and soon got the hang of it. The trial was hard, although not as hard as I expected. Later in the week, Matt told me I had been accepted for the training and my fitness would be monitored to ensure I was fit enough to fight.

The first class was demanding and after a few minutes of skipping, we had to do what trainer Rob Hodgkins called ‘The Magic 600.’ To my horror, this consisted of 300 jumping jacks, 200 thigh burners and 100 push-ups! This was tough and I nearly walked out. I didn’t manage to do the magic 600, but I have completed them every time we’ve done them since.

I expected to be a long way behind everyone else and to my surprise, although I am at the bottom of the class, I am not far behind. The only explanation I can think of is I’ve been drinking Forever Freedom aloe gel for a few months now, which helps improve stamina and has other health benefits.

I absolutely love the training. Although it is hard work, it is incredibly fun. Rob is a good laugh and keeps us entertained, while at the same time pushes us to our limits. The other members are friendly and supportive. The classes usually involve lots of well-intentioned banter. I still have a long way to go, but I am the fittest I have ever been after only a few weeks of training. I am even fitter now than when I completed a 10K run seven years ago.

The toughest class so far was last week when Rob pushed me to my limits. Although I’m glad he pushed me hard, I got overwhelmed by a mixture of adrenaline and exhaustion and ended the class in a heap on the floor, sobbing my heart out.

Overall, I am having the time of my life and people keep telling me I am glowing. I am determined to be fit enough to take part in the match. I don’t care about winning. For me, just taking part is a huge victory.

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As It is in Heaven

Many believe that when Jesus prayed that “God’s will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven” he was talking about the times we’re living in now. The time when a ‘Golden Age’ will come to the Earth.

The energy around us is changing and has been for some time.  Mother Earth is also evolving, as is mankind. It is time for humanity to wake up and smell the coffee and I believe that is what is happening. The people have been subdued for too long and now people are standing up and questioning the powers that be. In my previous article, 2012 – End of the World or Golden Age of Peace?, I wrote, “for too long the world has been controlled by governments, religions and multi-national banks and corporations. The time has come when people are refusing to continue being repressed and are taking things into their own hands. Prime examples of this are the revolutions in the Middle East, Occupy Wall Street and websites such as Wikileaks andDemand Progress.”  Internet TV channel ‘The People’s Voice’ gives people the opportunity to express views and opinions that would not otherwise be broadcast by the mainstream media.

These are exhilarating times as more and more people are becoming spiritually awakened. Actor and comedian, Russell Brand, is calling for what he calls a ‘spiritual revolution’.  Brand says that “politics just needs to be the administration of certain spiritual principles… We are all one. We’re all together and every individual’s rights need to be respected… Oneness, togetherness, tolerance of one another and making sure that everyone is taken care of.” Another exciting development is that spiritual author  Marianne Williamson is running for Congress in the US.

People are starting to become more altruistic and are taking things into their own hands by making positive changes. A prime example of this is Tangelo Park, where self-made millionaire, Harris Rosen, reduced crime by 50% and increased the high school graduation rate by 100% by offering free day care and scholarships for all graduates.

As I mentioned in another previous article, 2012 – The End of the World as We Know It, “I believe we are witnessing… the end of a world fuelled by greed, hatred and fear; the beginning of a Golden Age of peace, love and happiness.”

I am often criticised for being an idealist and I reply, “I am proud to be an idealist. If everyone in the World was an idealist, it would be a much better place.”

Another Beautiful Day

It’s a beautiful day again. It may be cold and grey outside but it’s always a beautiful day in recovery. Always a beautiful day when you’re connected to Divine source energy. 

How to Get What You Want – Change the Subject

Change the subject or as Abraham Hicks puts it, “get off the subject.” When we have problems we seem to be addicted to talking about them. It’s as if we think that if we talk our problems enough we will find a magical solution or someone will wave a magic wand. In fact, the opposite is true. When we keep talking about our problems, we are focusing on what we don’t want and the message we give to our unconscious mind and the universe is that we want more of the same. The answer is to hand our problems over to a higher power, trust and surrender. I have found that this has two benefits. Firstly I have the serenity that comes from trusting and knowing that everything is going to be OK. Secondly, the quicker I do this, the faster the solution comes.

Having said all that, it is important to acknowledge our problems and notice the feelings they bring up. It can be healing to talk about them with a trusted friend or advisor. There is a difference between acknowledging our problems and repeatedly complaining about them. This is a lesson that I am still learning. The more I practice, the easier it gets.


Notice when you are talking about your problems. Ask yourself if you’re acknowledging your problems in a healthy way or repeatedly complaining about them.

Acceptance is the Answer

“And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing or situation – some fact of my life unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God’s world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely on life’s terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and my attitudes.” – The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous

The Power of Language

Every time we say or think something we are sending out vibrations to the universe and we’re also sending messages to our unconscious mind, so it’s really important to watch what we think and say. If you want to remember to do something, you can either say “I mustn’t forget to do X,” or “I must remember to do X”. In the first example, we’re focusing on what we don’t want and our unconscious mind and the universe connect to the word ‘forget’. In the second instance, our unconscious mind and the universe connect to the word remember. Another example is saying either “I hope it doesn’t rain today” or “I hope we have nice weather today.”


I’ve noticed that people often say “no worries” or “no problem”. If someone says “thank you” or “sorry” and we say “no worries” or “no problem” both our unconscious mind and the unconscious mind of the other person is focused on the words “worries” and “problem.” As an alternative try saying “my pleasure”,  “you’re welcome” or “it’s OK” instead.

Some believe that everything in life comes down to a choice between love and fear. Bearing that in mind, I would recommend avoiding using the phrase “I’m afraid,” i.e. “I’m afraid there are no appointments left on Thursday.” Another word I try to avoid is “awfully,” i.e. “it’s an awfully long way to go.”


  • Become aware of your words and thoughts and how you can change them into focusing on what you want and / or something more positive.
  • Write a list of negative words or phrases that you use and write another list of alternative words or phrases.

God’s Will Today Prayer

When I say God, I mean the God of my understanding; my higher power, the Universe, the Angels, the Divine, my Higher Self, Buddha, The Tao. I believe in all of those things and I believe that  they are inside me. I am the Universe. God is within me. We are all one and all part of the Divine. We are part of the universe and the universe is part of us.

For sometime now I have been healing through means of recovery programmes that encourage me to admit that I’m powerless and hand my problems over to God. I have no problem handing over my problems to God, although admittedly, sometimes I forget. When I first considered the idea of admitting that I’m powerless however, I felt a huge amount of resistance. “I am powerful. I have already made a number of significant changes in my life. I have had a number of successes,” I said to myself. After considering this and journaling about it I realized that I am powerful, by the grace of God. The Divine within me is what makes me powerful and without that I am nothing. My life is always smoother and more successful when I put my life in God’s hands.

Based on learnings from these programmes and teachings such as those of Marianne Williamson and Doreen Virtue, I say the following prayer every morning:

Dear God and the Angels,

Please send me the willingness to do your will and get out of the way so that your will can be done. Please show me clearly what your will for me is.

What would you have me do today? Where would you have me go? What would you have me say and to whom? What would you have me wear? How would you have me do my hair? How would you have me serve humanity?

Thank you. And so it is. Amen

I can hear some of you questioning and even ridiculing the part where I ask what I should I wear and how I should do my hair. This feels right for me and I believe that nothing is too small for God and the Angels to help with. I think my Angels enjoy helping me choose my clothes. They are my girlfriends after all. In my minds eye, I can see my angels pulling a dress out from my wardrobe and holding it up saying, “what about this one?”

I hope this prayer resonates with you and if so I encourage you to use it or devise your own. Enjoy the process and have fun with your higher power as you make choices together. Know that your Higher Power loves you and wants to wrap you up in comfort and security.


Use this prayer daily, write your own or find something similar online. Remember to have fun with it.

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