Off With the Faeries

Elven beautiful woman with flute

Anyone that knows me well will tell you that I’m regularly absent minded, also known as ‘off with the faeries’. This causes me to be forgetful, clumsy and ungrounded. A bit like Phoebe from Friends or Bridget Jones. The first person to notice it was my fourth driving instructor, who said it was a challenge teaching me how to drive and that he had to teach me to drive on auto-pilot. Anyone that’s been driven by me can relate to that.

I had a funny incident earlier this week. I went for a lovely walk through the woods and by the River Orwell in order to combat my fatigue and lethargy. It was approaching sunset and I was the only one there. It was quite magical and I imagined the faeries and elementals playing amongst the grass and the bushes.

Suddenly I heard some beautiful faery music that conjured up images of a faery sitting on a toadstool and playing a flute. I looked around. There was no-one to be seen. It was baffling. Could it really be faeries? The sound seemed to be coming from the undergrowth close to the river, behind a ridge. I tiptoed closer and peered over the edge, but there was nothing to be seen. Curiouser and curiouser.

I suddenly realised that I had inadvertently set off iTunes on my phone and that’s where the music was coming from.

New Moon Abundance Cheque – this actually works!

Law of Abundance Cheque

In June 2015, my friend Ali Basil sent me a picture of a cheque. This was similar to one I’d previously downloaded from ‘The Secret’ website and my first thought was “I’ve got one of those and it hasn’t worked”. As I looked closer though, I could see this was different. Ali instructed me to write my own and put it in my money corner at new moon. Although I didn’t really think it would work, I followed Ali’s instructions and to my amazement I received £1200 into my bank account the very next day. This month I have done the same. Remember abundance isn’t always about money. You can be abundant in many ways. Whatever the Universe blesses you with, remember to be grateful and say thank you. May you be blessed with wealth and abundance. And so it is. Exercise On the next new moon write your own abundance cheque and put it in your money corner. Write ‘Thank you’ on the back. Click here to find out when the next new moon is. Click here to find out where your money corner is. Watch out for abundance coming into your life, make a note of it, be grateful and say thank you. If you enjoy reading my blog posts and feel guided to do so, please share them with others and or make a donation by clicking here.

Love Is All There Is

I was recently lucky enough to have a business meeting with the Managing Director and Marketing Director of Junari Ltd, a successful company that weaves love and consciousness into the fabric of everything they do. At the meeting they gave me a book that they give away on their 21st Century Alchemy courses, entitled ‘Love Is All There Is’.

I loved the book, written by Source, and I found it to be in the same vein as ‘The Course of Miracles’. My favourite bit was the chapter on prayer. In this chapter, Source, also known as Love, advises that whatever problems we have, love is always the answer and therefore love is what we pray for. When we have a problem we can say the following prayer:

“Love I hand this situation over to you. I ask that you help me to see the love in this situation and in every moment. Let Love’s will be done.”

Since then whenever I have a problem I’ve been saying this prayer and letting go. When someone pisses me off I send them love. In my head I say “I love you” and I picture pink energy emanating from my heart to theirs. I remember that we are all connected and that everyone has the spark of the Divine inside them. Everyone has Buddha nature. Sometimes it is really well hidden but it is there.


Whatever is bothering you in your life today hand it over to Love using the aforementioned prayer and let it go. Do the same when someone is pissing you off and send them love.

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Five Feel Good Factors for 2015

We all have times when we need a pick me up or a boost. Here are five feel good tips that I use when I need a pick me up or just generally to keep me in tip top condition, physically, emotionally and mentally.

  1. Sing

I love to sing and it puts me in a great frame of mind. I have a few songs that I sing regularly first thing in the morning to boost my spirits. My favourites include ‘Happy’ by Pharrell Williams, ‘Best Day of My Life’ by American Authors and ‘I’ve Got a Feeling’ by The Black Eyed Peas. Watch out for my ‘Music for Manifesting’ post, coming soon.

  1. Hot and Cold Shower Blast

When I finish my shower, I blast on the water as hot as I can stand, alternated with as cold as I can stand, a few times and fully immerse myself in the water. When it comes to the cold, it is a shock and if I can just stay under for a few seconds and move past the shock, the feeling is exhilarating. It’s actually quite addictive.

  1. Exercise

Yeah, yeah, I know. None of us want to exercise, least of all me and what I’ve found is that the key is to find exercise I enjoy doing.  Find an exercise that makes your heart sing. I can’t get motivated to mindlessly walk or run on a treadmill, I feel as though I might lose the will to live, so I have found exercises I love to do. My favourites are going for a run in nature or by the sea, dancing and boxing. I discovered Ceroc dancing about eight years ago. It is so much fun, a great way to get fit and I’ve also met a lot of fabulous people there. Another thing I love is boxing. I never thought I would box as I’m anti-violence and when I joined Suffolk Punch Boxing Club earlier this year I discovered that it’s not about violence at all. It’s a skillful, tactical discipline.

  1. Meditation

As with exercise, there are many different types of meditation and it’s important to find a type of meditation that works for you. I’ve tried many different kinds and there a few that I find really beneficial. One of my favourites is the Unfolding Enlightenment mediation facilitated by Robina Hearle and Sue Stoddard, which I do with Robina at Rose Cottage, as well as listening to the CD at home.

  1. Sea Salt Bathing

I love to swim in the sea. It is such an amazing feeling and I do it whenever I can. When it’s too cold to swim in the sea, I have a bath at home with sea salt or Epsom salts and lavender oil. I fully immerse myself, including my head and hair, in the water. Salt water is healing and cleans negative energy.

So my new year’s resolution is to love myself more and do things that make me feel good. What are your feel good factors for 2015?

Learning to Love Myself Chocolate Truffles (dairy free, gluten free, sugar free)

This recipe is delicious and quick and easy to make.

  • 1/2 cup coconut oil
  • 1/4 cup cacao or cocoa
  • 4 Tbsp rice malt syrup
  • 1 tsp vanilla extract (optional)

Melt the coconut oil and add the rice malt syrup and vanilla extract. Whisk and add the cacao cocoa powder. Whisk occasionally while pouring into mini muffin or cup cake cases. Cool for 30 minutes in the freezer.

Keep in the fridge, otherwise they will melt.

Learning to Love Myself Pancakes (dairy free, wheat free, sugar free)

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Makes approximately nine pancakes


¾ cup of wheat free flour

1/3 cup of rice milk

4 tbsp rice malt syrup

3 eggs

Pinch of sea salt (optional)

Blueberries and strawberries to serve


Beat the eggs. Add the flour, salt and milk and mix well. Add the rice malt syrup and mix again. Heat a little coconut oil in a small omelette pan. Once the coconut oil has melted, pour in a small amount of the mixture, enough to coat the bottom of the pan. Cook until golden brown (not long) on the bottom and then flip, using a fish slice or spatula, to cook the other side. Leftover mixture can be stored in the fridge and used the next day. Make sure to give it a good stir again after taking it out of the fridge. Serve with blueberries and strawberries.

It’s not a diet. It’s a decision.











My experience with Clean 9.

Earlier this year I was diagnosed with M.E. / Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. After having problems with fatigue for over 20 years, since I was a teenager, I knew that I needed to change my lifestyle and start taking better care of myself. As it turns out the fatigue was caused by not being on the right medication for my hypothyroidism and not chronic fatigue at all. Although I am feeling better since being on different thyroid medication, I am still not quite right and I know that taking better care of myself will help.

I know from experience that dieting doesn’t work. I have only been able to stick to a diet once. I lost nearly three stone on weight watchers, but I put it all back on again and more. I used to binge eat and I turned to Overeaters Anonymous (OA) for support. I found OA helpful for a while, but ultimately, continually focusing on overeating and my problems (i.e. focusing on what I didn’t want) was counterproductive.

Over the last two or three years I have started to change the way I eat. My motivation was to improve my health and if I also lost weight it was a bonus. I cut right down on sugar, dairy and white flour and increased my intake of fruit and vegetables. I found some great recipes for sugar free, wheat free and dairy free chocolate and cakes.

One thing I did discover during my time in OA was that I associated food with love. For me they are the same. My parents weren’t very loving when I was a child and they showed love through food. My Mum, Grandma and step-Mum were all good cooks and were often baking cakes. My Mum wouldn’t let us have sweets, sugar or sugary drinks, but we were allowed chocolate. When we used to visit Dad on alternate weekends he would give us 50p each to buy sweets and we would buy two chocolate bars and a selection of penny chews with what was left over.

I thought that one way of ‘learning to love myself’ was to treat myself as I would want a lover to treat me and so I ‘wined and dined’ myself. I would have a kind of date night at home, which usually involved TV, pizza, a tub of ice cream and a bottle of wine. I thought I was loving myself, but actually I was just filling the void. When I realised that I associated food with love, I started to have more awareness around this behaviour. Now I have a date night where I cook myself and my inner child something healthy and delicious and really nurture the two of us.

Despite all of this, I still find it hard to stick to eating healthily. I am definitely getting better all the time, it’s just taking a bit longer than I expected. Earlier this year I asked the universe for a way to help me to get motivated to improve my lifestyle and shortly afterwards I started training for a boxing match, which was just the incentive I needed. I loved the training. It was great fun and with the help of my awesome coach, I achieved things I never thought possible. Unfortunately, I had to pull out after about 8 weeks or so, as I fractured my ankle. As soon as my ankle is better I will be back at the gym.

One of the other things that has helped me tremendously is starting my new health and wellness business and discovering the power of Aloe Vera. I drink Aloe Vera everyday and take supplements that help with my energy levels. I recently tried the ‘Clean 9’ programme to clean out my digestive system and improve my health even more, hopefully with the added bonus of weight and inch loss.

I couldn’t do the Clean 9 exactly as per the instructions as I am intolerant to soya and was unable to drink the shakes, so I bought all the other products separately. For the first two days all I ate was fruit and vegetables, along with a whole lot of aloe vera and supplements. The natural supplements are designed to help you recognise when you’re full and boost your metabolism. I was surprised to find that I didn’t feel hungry and when I did, I filled up on grapes. In the first two days I lost three pounds. Unfortunately I didn’t stick to the programme properly and I put that three pounds back on by the end of the nine days. The mistakes I made was that I ate too many carbs, went over my calories and didn’t do enough exercise. I also didn’t prepare well enough for it. As I’ve been eating healthily for sometime I thought I could get away without doing the pre-cleanse and I was wrong. Having said all that, by the end of the nine days I felt amazing. I have learnt from my mistakes and I will be doing the Clean 9 again soon and this time I will be doing it properly, because I deserve it.

Since I changed my eating habits two years ago I have lost one and a half stone, one stone of which has been since July 2014, when I started my boxing training. I am passionate about continuing to improve my health and getting slimmer. I would also like to help others do the same.

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Lucid Dreaming – part two

I had difficulty going to sleep, which is unusual for me lately. I’ve been in the habit of listening to the Silva method evening meditation and that sends me to sleep pretty quickly. I ate a large meal and too much dark chocolate right before bed and I’ve got quite a lot on my mind, including the fact that I have to be up at 6 am to go to training that I don’t really want to go to, for a new job that I don’t really want to do. So I lay there tossing and turning, feeling sick, trying various tricks to help me sleep and berating myself for eating so much chocolate. I felt sick, hot and thirsty. I tried some of my lucid dream techniques.

Eventually I fell into a deep sleep. Too deep, it was uncomfortable. I’ve had that happen before and I can’t wake up. It scares me. It’s kind of like I’m suffocating under a thick, heavy duvet of sleep and I’m struggling to get out from underneath or like I’m underwater and I’m trying to pull my way to the surface.

I was dreaming about trying to wake up and trying to wake my Mum up. I have that dream a lot. I try and scream to try and get my Mum’s attention that I need help and to try and wake myself up. I’ve been having that dream for as long as I can remember, even though I haven’t lived with my Mum for many years.

I dreamt that I was stumbling around trying to turn the light on, trying to scream and trying to wake myself up. I remembered that my bedside light was broken and so I was trying to reach the light switch on the wall. I can’t remember much else of what I was dreaming about. I know my cat Charlie was there and I dreamt that I had a mouthful of cat hair. I think there was something to do with a radio.

Then I found myself dreaming about a man in my life and I think I might have been lucid dreaming. If not, I was dreaming about lucid dreaming. I said to myself “I recognise that I am dreaming.” I dreamt that I was sucking this guy’s toes and I had a vague recollection of him telling me that he had a foot fetish. I wondered if he was having the same dream. I decided to text him when I awoke, but then I decided it would be inappropriate.

Then I was back to the whirlwind of struggling to wake up again. Suddenly I found myself in my car. I looked up and a woman that I recognized was pouring water into my car from a watering can. She was a wise woman. I think I recognised her from the telly, although she also reminded me of a wise Sufi woman that I knew in Cairo.

She smiled at me.

“I forgot that you always wait for me and fill my car up with your watering can,” I said. “It is such a hot day and I’m so thirsty.”

I excitedly told her about my dream. I heard some birds crowing and I looked up to the roof of a nearby house and saw two black birds, maybe rooks or crows, talking to me but they were calling me Karen instead of Sam.

“They’re telling you that you’re still there,” said the wise woman. “You need to get back down to Earth. You need to ground yourself.”

I felt myself slipping away.

“I feel like I’m half asleep,” I said. “I feel as though I’m going to pass out.” And then I was sucked into the whirlwind again. Looking for the light switch, trying to scream and trying to wake up. It was quite frightening. I asked my guides and angels to help me and then I woke up and I was screaming.

I was very hot and sweaty. I lay there trying to calm down and wondered what it all meant. I knew I had to write it down straight away, even though I have to be up at 6 am or earlier and have a big day ahead. The clock display read 2:22, which means ‘you’re nearly there, don’t quit’ in angel numbers.

I’m not sure what the dream meant. Maybe ‘don’t dabble in lucid dreaming’ or ‘don’t eat so much dark chocolate before bed’. I’m intrigued to know why the birds were calling me Karen. Maybe I was Karen in a past life. Or maybe I’m Karen ‘on the other side.’

I’d love people’s thoughts and comments.